I have no idea where my faith in God is. I have no idea where my relationship with Him is. I have a good time living without Him but the it’s when I really bunker down and look at myself that I realize I don’t want to live a life without Him, that I really want Him here all the time with me. I don’t know who I am when I push Him down to the #10 spot on my priority list. I sin excessively when He’s not in my decision making process. The world may love who I become, but I don’t want the world to love me. At the end of my days, no one will remember me and the only thing I need will be Him and it might be too late. I don’t want Him to be secondary, I want Him to be first. But I’m too lost and jaded to find out how to bring Him to the forefront.