I distinctively remember this one time back in my early college years of turning on the tv and watching MTVK and wishing so badly I was the Korean host chick on that show. I remember sayin it was my dream and now I’m hosting a show at the MTV studios and a music show for them. I’m not saying I’m great or that I’m so awesome that I deserve this, what I’m saying is that life is a funny thing, and if you work hard enough, things can happen. If you have some talent, hone it, and craft it and don’t stop chasing.
I’ve been having a very emotional rough two days.
So today, I just prayed. I let it all out, and I prayed for peace and for guidance. An hour later, this is no joke, I felt complete serenity.
I smiled, I laughed, and I thanked Him for it all. Thank you God for this peace I feel.
Werd werd werd.
All God.
Happy sabbath.
Day and night. #sky #god
amen. Christmas service.
Good morning Thursday. #instagood #nyc #morning #god #weather #sun #tea
Morning. #god #sky #perfection #scenery
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Tonight I cried about dogs, about boys, about my stress, about my job, about my next move, about me feeling like a loser, about me feeling like I am nothing, about all this crap. I called up my girlfriend and she said some pretty hard-hitting stuff. My roommate came home and I cried on her leg and she spoke to me and said some really realistic stuff and then I wiped my tears and learned the following:
God? #sky #god #heaven (Taken with Instagram)
I have no idea where my faith in God is. I have no idea where my relationship with Him is. I have a good time living without Him but the it’s when I really bunker down and look at myself that I realize I don’t want to live a life without Him, that I really want Him here all the time with me. I don’t know who I am when I push Him down to the #10 spot on my priority list. I sin excessively when He’s not in my decision making process. The world may love who I become, but I don’t want the world to love me. At the end of my days, no one will remember me and the only thing I need will be Him and it might be too late. I don’t want Him to be secondary, I want Him to be first. But I’m too lost and jaded to find out how to bring Him to the forefront.
How can you look at this and not think God exists? #god #heaven #nature #perfection #beauty (Taken with instagram)